RABBIT HOLE NOUN "Used to refer to a bizarre, confusing, or nonsensical situation or environment, typically one from which it is difficult to extricate oneself." (Disclaimer: This post contains a brief mention of parasites. If you'd be triggered by this then avoid!) I'm an obsessive little son of a gun - this isn't BLOODY news … Continue reading INTO THE RABBIT HOLE
Hello people. I haven't posted for bloody ages! I've just been really busy enjoying 1 hour walks, shopping for essential items, and crying salty bitter tears of depression into my crisp white bed linen. Today I'm gunna write a very short little piece on some myths and misconceptions about OCD. I hate to use a … Continue reading 5 common misconceptions about OCD
Welcome, humans. A tiny miracle hath come forth amongst all the disconsolate distress the world is going through; I'm (70%) calm as fuck. ????whatisthiswitchcraft???? AS IF I spent years and years being petrified of a non-existent worldwide viral pandemic, only to react (70%) serenely now that it's actually happening. I struggle a little in the evenings … Continue reading A bunch of stuff I’ve been doing to stay positive and calm
What is the OCD-related fear? One of my biggest OCD fears is viruses - literally all viruses - but especially ones that may cause me to become contagious (I think this is related to blame and guilt) or cause me to lose a loved one. Before and during my diagnosis, I used to skip entire … Continue reading OOF. What it’s like having OCD during the Covid-19 outbreak.
BUCKLE UP AND GRAB A DRINK KIDS. I'm concocting this post mid-freakout. I've never actually written a post in the middle of a moment of OCD fear. Maybe it will come across as raw and sincere, perhaps it will contain my usual dry humour, or maybe it will just be a frantic mess of swearing … Continue reading My biggest bugbear; BUGS (not bears though)
It's 5am in the uk and I'm currently sat stuffing my face with pretzels (aka salty bois) whilst smoll wet feeling-beads sprout from my eyes. Why in the name of sweet baby Yoda am I CRYING because I'm gunna be discharged from my weekly CBT sessions?? The last time I was discharged (after my first … Continue reading I’m being discharged (yay!) but I’m feeling confused about it.
GOOD MORNIN' YA SLEEPY LITTLE SAUSAGES (I'm the sleepy sausage really heh blessup my fellow insomniacs). It's been a ruddy while hasn't it?! This is, in part, down to a shiny new health diagnosis (snore) and ALSO some pretty intense/fun/terrifying/enlightening CBT exposure therapy. I'll talk about that another time however, because TODAY I'm gunna talk … Continue reading New Bloody Year (and how my OCD reacts to it)
OHHH DAAAAAVE SIR DAAAVE YOU'RE PERFECT TO MEEE THE MOST HANDSOME SAILOR ON ALL SEVEN SEEEEAAAS (I sing this to him daily but it's not weird in person okay). Let me begin. My physical and mental health deteriorated at the beginning of the year. I was seldom well enough to leave my home at the … Continue reading Dave the hammo: How a pet has helped me to manage OCD
Hello sweet earthlings. I've been MIA again haven't I. It's been a month filled with illness (fun), followed by some time away (in Wales - not prison), followed by a fresh course of intensive CBT, all sprinkled with clinic appointments and a welcome resuscitation of my social life. (My patchy posts since the relapse got … Continue reading OCD and relapses; Why this one was so hard.
For somebody who feels as much as I do (I cried at a mini bottle of Dove shampoo in boots last week), I lack a very necessary and natural human emotion in certain situations. Fear. It's an element of my personality that confuses my nearest and dearest. It's almost as though people are so used … Continue reading NOTHING SCARES ME ANYMORE (apart from really stupid shit)